I Think He Has a Signature Pose...

Just Dance

Stella had her dance recital today and she was so cute. Watch Stella who is third from the left:



She had all of our friends and family there to see her and she loved the attention! Even Grandma Audrey enjoyed the show:-)





Baby James was so good at the recital...it probably helped that Lynn rocked and loved on him the entire time!

Stella was given flowers by Thomas, Lynn, Gigi and Grandma Stella. She was such a big girl today and handled herself with such grace.









The only bad part was that Aunt Erin had to catch a flight back home after the recital:( We miss her already!!

Wild Animals

Daddy Time

Two Months Old

Brighter

O-o-h child, things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child, things'll get brighter
O-o-h child, things are gonna get easier
O-o-h child, things'll get brighter

Wall

I am not in a good place. James will be seven weeks tomorrow. We are in that place where the help stops and people assume that we have it under control and we do. But then it begins to feel like Groundhogs Day...same thing over and over and over. Feedings, naps, cartoons, dinner, bath time, and then over and over and over.The lack of sleep begins to really get to you...When I think about it, I haven't slept for more than a four hour stretch in seven weeks! The grind is beginning to wear on me.

I felt my anxiety come back on Monday. It was a stressful day. The twins had their five year old shots and it was the longest I had been away from James. I thought it would go away but here I am on Thursday and it is still here. It makes me feel crazy, especially around the twins. I guess because I have to fake it with them the most. Smile. Act like I am not crawling out of my skin.

I have searched and searched online and all I read about is PPD. I don't feel depressed...I feel anxious. So today I feel like I am hitting a wall. I feel like James will never sleep through the night and I will never feel like myself again. I wish my parents lived closer so I could walk next door and be taken care of for a bit; the way that parents do.

I know this will pass but I wish it would pass now!

Pictures!

We had pictures taken of the three kids on Friday. I was so nervous that we would not be able to get a good one of all three. Here is what we ended up with:





They are pictures of pictures so the quality is not that good. Check out our expanding wall here!

Mr Blackwell

Our black cat who is half vampire, loves Stella and lets her just carry him around. When he comes in from his nights out, he always finds Stella and tries to curl up with her. Look at him!







Such a man...legs wide open and happy as can be!

My Kiddos

Sibling Love

Good Morning World!